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[Apr. 16th, 2007|12:49 pm] |
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right now i have the worst headache ever.i'm so upset i wish i could stop crying and i don't know what to do.i've never been through this before i'm usually the one on the other end of this situation.it's hard to write in here cause i don't even know how to put what im thinking into words.i mean i'm angry but upset but i wish i could have him back.i want to say i don't care but i do and i wont stop caring.but i just don't get it i really thought he wouldn't do this to me.&how do your feelings change in 9 days?!it feels like we've been going out for 5 months, we practically were!then you finally ask me out only to break up with me 9 days later.
i'm really going to miss you, but i don't think you get it.
you probably wont even miss me i don't know what i'm thinking. |
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[Apr. 10th, 2007|10:36 am] |
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everyday i love him just a little bit more
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[Apr. 7th, 2007|02:20 pm] |
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i finally got what i wanted<33333
4-2-07 |
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| lifee |
[Feb. 20th, 2007|04:16 pm] |
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things haven't been going as good as they were at one point and i guess thats just life. i'm trying to deal with all these disapointments as they come but its not as easy as i thought it would be. i'm losing friends and i think i like someone but idk for sure if they like me back. i always feel stupid when i like someone who doesn't like me but i think this time it might finally work out. i've been deprived of sleep and its killing me honestly i need some time to myself. this week helped me realize that i TRUTHFULLY hate all girls beside about 4 of my close friends. all they do is start shit and cause problems i don't need that shit in my life especially right now. i need to make more friends in colonia (boys) preferably but whatever happens happens. i just need my life to pick up again cause i'm sick of now being happy. i suppose i'll just have to cheer myself up somehow who knows what i'll do.
i can't wait to get my nose pierced and it seems like i have to wait forever it's driving me NUTS i hate it. but on the bright side my birthday is in 8 dayssss=]
but right now i have alot of math homework and science quiz that wants to kick my ass tomorrow so i think i'll go study. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2007|11:07 pm] |
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who i'd like to meet: Someone who doesn't think i'm annoying and rude. Someone who will treat me with the respect that i treat them with. Someone who will honestly love me and not just say they do.
basically i need new friends,and it is easier said then done
ooh and tonight i found out my mom, dad, and mike think i'm "combative" (bitchy), opinionated, and rude basically a bitch. what a confindence booster, i'm telling ya |
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[Feb. 4th, 2007|04:10 pm] |
i'm sick of it all at this point. i'm tired of changinh friends JUST when i've found ones that i like. i'm beginning to not like high school at all. boys are all too confusing and i think i'm starting to like someone who doesn't even like me. i'm so self consienss lately. i'm really not happy with my life at this point and i don't know what to do. my classes suck, i'm not getting along with my parents, and i feel like a bad daughter. i realize that i hate girls ALL of them besides a few that i could probably count on my hand. they just piss me off they're catty, annoying, stupid, sluty, bitches who don't give a shit about anyone besides themselves. although i deffenitly need more friends so i'm going to have to be more outgoing or something cause i'm tired of friends coming and going. like i said JUST when i find some people that i actually REALLY like and wouldn't mind being good friends with. now i feel like they're moving on already and they're done with me. i'm just sick and tired of it.
these are the kinds of moments that make me wish i moved out of this town when i had the chance. |
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| just hold my hand, |
[Jan. 31st, 2007|09:20 pm] |
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| | jenny from the block | ] |
i think that that would help.
today it seems like the first day of school all over again. four new classrooms, four new teachers, and a shitload of jerkoffs in each class. yeah to say the least this semester should be quite interesting. lets start off with my new first block. if you don't go to my school i don't think this entry will be entertainging to you at all but if you wish to read be my guest.
Block 1 Ms. DeCrosta-Algebra for starters she is very outgoing and a bit too nice. despite the fact that she was nice today she is one sarcastic biotch. and jillian is in my class, i have a feeling the two of are are going to be getting in trouble this year. oh yeah and we can't use calculators!? i don't think i'm going to like that class very much.
Block 2 Mrs. Plis-Business Word this class was a fiasco so to speak. my computer chair was made for a midget(for lack of a better word) and my keyboard sucks. i HATE this class so far and on top of that the kid sit next to is a complete asshole. today he had a picture of a gun on his computer, way to scare the little white girl on the first day buddy.
Block 3 Mrs. Smith-Public Speaking well besides the fact that i'm insanely shy there are some rude ass kids in this class. the teachers nice but i think i'm going to be scared eveytime i walk into the class. but i think i know what i'm bringing in for show and tell already.
Block 4 Ms. Flormann-Science(hell)she is actually nice and i like her no matter what other people say. but girlfriend is stuck in the seventies with her feathered hair and mom jeans come on honey. hah we even got homework today and a quiz tomorrow jesus christ bananas.
so over all my classes suck and i really don't think i'm going to like this semester but there's nothing i can do about it.
kay brought me a cappucino blast so that helped and mikey came by to force me to by strike tickets. tonight wasn't all that bad. i'll let you know how tomorrow is. |
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| life's a bitch |
[Jan. 29th, 2007|05:11 pm] |
things went good today i trully had a good day. i saw my white chocolate mhmm mhmm he's fucking hotttt. okay not like yo have ANY idea who i'm talking about.
but my best friend is having one of the worst days and honestly that effects me somewhat. i mean i envy the way she handled the situation and how optimistic she is. life is complicated and so are boys but i just feel so bad that she had to get hurt like that when she doesn't deserve it.
although things will get better just like they always do and hopefully everyone will still get along. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2007|09:12 pm] |
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uh i have the worst stomache/cramps ever idk whats wrong with me. i've been so bored lately, i wish i had more friends i feel like such a loser.
i've been fighting with my parents so much lately and i don't know why. i'm older now none of that middle school bullshit but they treat me like i'm five. i thought when you get older you're supposed to get more privileges it seems that some of mine are being taken away. i don't think my parents trust me as much as they used to or maybe its my fault. my patience has been wearing thin just like the little lies i've been telling them. i can't help it i'm in high school i want to go out and be with my friends. i have freaking finals and the day after i get to stay home (after yelling at my parents for about ten minutes trying to convince them to let me stay home) but i finally go them to say yes.
i'm trully content with not having a boyfriend, i'd rather have fun then be tied down(haha that makes me sound slutty lol).
mhmm mhmm i love boys yes i do:) |
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[Jan. 27th, 2007|11:04 pm] |
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hahahahah wow why do i even have one of these i never update it ahhh jeez.
soooooooo much stuff has happened since november. december was kinda amazing i love Christmas nothing can make me upset that month. although i have began a relationship and ended it because he was just too jealous for me. december came and went all too fast but i suppose it will be around again soon. then came january, first of all i didn't even get to hangout with my friends on new years, i was at my freakin grandparents house ahh i might as well have LOSER printed across my forehead. but me, kay, matt, and joeyb have been hanging out in c-town ALOT. but i love them boys and kay my NIGROSSS CUATROSSS<33333. high school is great and i can't complain but finals are going on and the semester ends in four days. i'm going to miss my classes so much and everyone in them but now i guess i get to meet new people.
i think i've changed alot but maybe not for the best. who knows? i would feel stupid and cliche to blame my changes on high school but i don't know what else to blame. i've done some things lately that i shouldn't be doing and i feel like i'm throwing my life down the crapper. but you know what you only live once so i don't see whats the big deal, i worry way too much. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2006|08:02 pm] |
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okay i'm home from north carlonia and i wishi didn't have to come home. i hate it how when ever i go on vacation its better than here but i still don't want to move. i don't even know. i'm beginning to learn people can be real jerks. i want a relationship but with someone i LIKE and they don't even know it. i want something i'm never going to have. life is going slow and i'm ready to pick up the pace but i need a little help.
fall is almost over :-(
^LMAOOO my friends are bad picture takers^ |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2006|03:23 pm] |
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friday was a good day i had fun and met new people:] but today i'm confused and i don't know what is true or not anymore. but its fall so i'm fine i love this season i love the leaves falling and how its windy but not too cold, so you can wear just a hoddie. now i get off the bus at a farther stop from my house so i can like just walk idk why but this weather makes me want to be outside and just walk with my hoddie on and my iPod in hand.
i just wish i had a boy to hold my other hand. |
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[Oct. 16th, 2006|03:59 pm] |
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This weekend was soooooo much fun. friday was an easy day since we had the pep rally. i'd say the pep rally was the highlight of my WEEK MONTH only because there were streakers!!!!! i wanted to see a streaker at least once in my life and i did! at first i just saw two people running around on the football feild then i realized WAIT A MINUTE?! THEY'RE NAKED?! the principals face was priceless. THEN i went to the strike show which was alot of fun:]
1.some band i didn't know but they were okay i guess i think they were called the sky something.
2. underwater arsonists:D i love it that i know like all they're songs and can sing along to them along wiff claire hahah:]
3.the hollow truth was amazing i've never seen them live before but wow they were great.
4.strike they were good but when everyone got on stage for the last song it was like wtf hahahah but for the most [art they were good.
5.the years gone by they were pretty good not a big crowd but i thought they were good.
friday was also my first time at hamilton street but i like the place its so chill but i would never sit on one of the couches it looks like you can get AIDS by just sitting on it. then i got burger king which was good hah
then early saturday kayla and i went to her mom's house to go to another show (waidestock) the show was alot of fun i saw BOYS NIGHT OUT:], split fifty, pull the pin, some shit local band, sunstreak, and this punk band that looked like lynyrd skynyrd (shit my r is sticking:[) the guy climbed up the balcony after taking his shit off and he was one hairy mofo and then he JUMPED down from the balcony after the security guards told him not to.
then on sunday me kayla and her mom went to all these different place to take pictures it was alot of fun.
but school today was soo boring i hated it and i feel asleep in history my eyes were so squinty that i was scared mr. davis was going to send me to the office for a drug test lmaoooo.
well whatever i thought i would update this since i haven't in a while.
and uhhh i don't know who i like anymore boys are all too complicating:[ |
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[Oct. 5th, 2006|10:23 pm] |
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holy chit i haven't updated this thing in awhile whats up with that. okay well i kinda started a whole new life in high school and i LOVE it. i actually look foward to high school everyday i love it besides the homework and getting paper thrown at me cause i'm a freshman (which is gay). my classes are easy but boring. i HATE spanish only because my teacher is stupid seriously i think i may be somewhat more intelligent than her i dont know what ever, and i hate the people in my class too there are gross. spit balls go past my face every two seconds its nasty. in gym we had to run the mile and i did it under my average time yay! okay i think i'm done but basically i really want to update this more. but who knows if i will lol:]
and i miss carlos:[ he should be with me an kayla. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2006|09:40 pm] |
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you have no idea how much i wish i was still in lg. i had soo much fun there and i miss everyone. i can't wait till smashley sends me the pictures hahaha good times:] but i get my braces off in two days almost. jeez then my aunt comes i can't wait. and then maybe the strike show i would like to go but idk i just have a baad feeling about it. then high school in like two weeks =O its insane i deff. don't want this summer to end. i think this is the most fun i've ever had during a summer:[. i don't want to go to high school i'm scurrd. speaking of curr i talked to ryan yesterday lol. god i freakin love the kid. CAAAAAAATFISH! or ZEEEEEEEEE COMPUTER IZZ BEING ZEEE FAGGOT!! lmaao god he it too funny. but i wish he lived in jersey not u mass. but oh well i can't wait til next year a WHOLE week of PARTYING! hellz yeah. |
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[Jun. 21st, 2006|03:44 pm] |
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okay the main point of me writing is because tomorrow is graduation and the last day of my middle school LIFE can you believe that? anyway between lambott and year book signing and beig asked out by two people but NOT the person i'm crushing, i'm so confused. no more eighth grade or mr. parry who is by far one of the most awsome teachers i've had ever, no more crappy lunchs or lunch aids, no more drama club, no more carlos [my best buddy ever].i've had so many good and bad memeories this year but more good then bad. it trully is sad to say i wil miss middle school alot and my locker and ms. z [tues_dee] bahahahah. anyway its all over now but hopefully i still have my friends in high school.
also i really hate being single sometimes. i really wish he knew i liked him or that i even exist.
ooh yeah and the dance i forgot about that well i had the most fun ever. i danced the whole time like a white girl hah. and then ruby tuesday's after was mad fun. running around in the parking lot of toy's r us and best buy playing bumpper carts was the best. i'm going to post pic.s just cause i said so. enjoy:]
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| my CRAZY ass weekend. |
[Jun. 18th, 2006|09:27 pm] |
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first of all AHHHHH! i had the possibly worst weekend of my LIFE no joke. now i'm not talking serious boredom here i mean near death experiences. what happened you asked well one of my friends almost died in my pool which was horrible and he had to get rushed to the hospital cause he was like unconsious and he swaolled water and omg it was horrible. he actually turnd blue can you believe that. anyway on top of that my cousins band was playing and the cops had to come back to my houe because one of my shitty neighbors complained and we got yelled at. but shitty neighbors can't stop us from playing some rock they did an acoustic set for about a half an hour which was cool. i'm so happy they came up my cousin kev and dave and ricky [who really isn't my cousin but he is family hah] always know how to cheer someone up so i'm glad they played and they were there. then today me and kay were at the hospital all day with my friend. it was so bad but thank god he is talking and breathing on his own now. uggh then tomorrow we have feild day [sports all day] fun?...i don't think so. so i might ditch and stay home to help kay get ready for her party hopefully no one getts hurt. ooh and my dance i'll write about that tomorrow. maybe hah. |
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[Jun. 15th, 2006|10:40 pm] |
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okay so this should be pretty interesting to see what happens with this. i mean i had diary's but i only wrote in them for about three days. [gay] anyway my day was so weird. today we got busted in our attempt for a food fight [the last day of lunch ever in this school]. there had to be about 20 teachers in the lunch room no joke, kay counted. then tomorrow half day and DANCE. it makes me want to sing will you go to prom with me and DANCE and DANCE and DANCE and DANCE and DANCE hah. it should be fun i can't wait. well i'm tired i can't wait to see if i keep up with this thing hah.
ithinki[like]him :o |
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